Ding ding round two

Well I wasn’t expecting to be writing anymore for you all today, but must share how the rest of the day is panning out.

Having shared my earlier blog, I felt ready to head off walking. Got everything in the van, laced up my boots etc. and ready for the off. The van was reluctant to start and once it had, very quickly decided to cut out and not fire up again. I was calm and not going to be deterred, I put back pack on, leads on Cougs and Scarlet and set off. Not the coastal path but not walking at all wasn’t an option. I have become aware of just how much the walking helps me mentally as well as physically.

As I walked just out of town, into woodlands I was struck with how lucky I am that its only 2 minutes walk from home to the woods. Cougs and Scarlet were clearly very delighted at opportunity to run free in woods instead of open fields or beach. Cougs very quickly found large branch to carry while Scarlet was more than happy to play fetch with the ball.

Yesterday I was thinking about logistics going forward with the walk, taking into account only doing half days so extra running costs etc. Will need to get brake lights sorted and brakes checked anyway, but I wasn’t overly concerned about all falling into place. Walking this afternoon I asked the Lord if I missing something. What is His will. Maybe He wanting me to rest a while, although I pretty sure that’s not the case for the benefits to my health far out weigh any little hiccups with logistics. Have I put something at the bottom of the pile that needs attention first? Obviously the brakes on the van, and now diagnosis on why it not starting. (Sounds like the fuel not getting through).

We never stop learning do we? Today hasn’t been at all as I had expected. I still have garden like a meadow, but I have not fallen to pieces, had a panic attack or gone to bed crying about what I have lost or don’t have. What I learnt is this caterpillar has gone through the metamorphosis, and will never be the same again. I do not intend going back into cocoon. I also know in my heart that I do have a reason to live and something to offer. I have so much love and compassion for others who are lost and hurt and am now finding new ways to reach out to them. God is showing me ways I can use my experiences in life to help others without having to be ‘out there doing’.

Raising awareness and funds for BCRT I know is now going to be one of the focuses in my life. The one which Ken will be central to. But I have other callings and am starting to see one by one, what they are.

I looked at the insights to my blog and it shows over 600 views. That just seems so amazing.I was so reluctant to start one but now I look forward to sharing my day with you and it is huge encouragement, as is the positive feedback from many of you. Thank you all so much for helping to show me I have something worth saying. A life worth living.