There are so many 'firsts' in life that stick in our minds, from first best friend at school to moment our child took first step.
I have always struggled to remember 'important ' things and sometimes wonder, why is it I can remember our first home telephone number and even where the small square drain cover on path outside my childhood home were, but not facts and figures. The important things. Lol. Then today another 'first ' made it so clear. It's the significance of something that makes it stick. So simple really. Today I had another very significant first and I know I will always remember it. In a basket outside a souvenier shop were, (very familiar to me), little sellaphane packets containing walking stick badges. Ken had his own walking stick when a child and collected the badges which we then nailed onto it. If you haven't fallen asleep by now or stopped reading, you probably wondering why I am making such a big thing about it? The significance is that I smiled when I saw them. No pain or sadness. No sudden panic that having smiled at a memory I must be betraying Ken. A very significant 'first ' and sign of healing. It's a good feeling and I could almost hear Ken sighing and saying 'at last mother ' :-) I expected this walk to be part of healing but didn't expect to notice any big shift so soon. Thank you Lord. :-) Need to get to sleep now as hoping for better day walking tomorrow. Today rained a lot which was a plus as I do love walking in the rain but my knee wasn't Co operating so a good thing I had done extra miles first day. But tomorrow is a new day. 'The sun comes up. It's a new day dawning. .' :-) night all.